i'm lost~

i've been crying my eyes out..
i miss konyot so badly..
it's been 48 hours now..
n there r still no sign of him...

i just can't stop thinking about him..
think about him everywhere i go..
bile pergi dapur..ternampak mcm die tgh tido..
dok kat hall..
ternampak2 die main2 ... =(
bile pergi gardening pun teringat kat die..
sbb die akan ikut je mana kite pergi..
time jemur baju ke...die akan dok bawah ampaian tuh..
uwaaaaaaa...sape lah yg kejam sgt amik die tuh..

everyone misses him laaaa....
semua nangis2 je..
even noy called me all the way from UK when i text her..
tah la..maybe i dah kene start terima kenyataan yg konyot xkan balik..

pagi td cakap kat our neighbour pasal konyot..
n my neighbour cakap yg kucing die org pun pernah hilang before..
n neighbour i yg lagi satu pun kucing die pernah hilang..
n sampai sekarang x jumpa2...
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....punya la punah hati ku mendengar itu..

sometimes i blame myself..
if ever i stayed up late that night..
konyot will still be here with us..
but mama said..semua tuh dah tertulis..
ketentuan Allah..
yeah, she's right..cuma i terlalu2 sedih la..
serious rasa mcm putus cinta je..
i rasa lg teruk la..
sbb usually putus cinta nih..kite dah expect.. *sigh*

i rase mmg die kene curik..
2 possibilities..
first..die di curik oleh org..maybe budak kecik..
n di simpan n di buat menjadi kucing sendiri.. wuwuwuwuwu..
second, ia telah dicuri oleh mat pet n dijual..
even dapat rm50 pun sape nak bg kan..
if die jual kat pet shop lg mahal la.. kejamnyerr..duniaa!!
i risau satu je..if la ade budak bela..
n bile die tgk konyot nakal ke apa..
sekali die lapaskan balik..
n letak jauh2..
x pasal2 konyot jadi stray cat..
nak makan susah..kene pukul ke apa..
siannyerrr konyot..
*terlalu sedih..sampai termenangis*

mama dah suruh i simpan all of konyot's stuff..
tempat makan n minum die..
makanan die..
his litter box..
sbb mama kate die x bole tgk..
terlalu sedih..

ade la few friends yg offer nak bg kucing baru...
persian la ini la itu la..
but we just cannot deal with any cats at the moment..
too heart broken,..
i will definitely take times for us to replace konyot..
not in the mean time for sure..

as for me..
deep down in my heart..
i still wish he will be back...