denial~

all this while..i've been saying that i wanna get married when i'm 28-30..
not now..since i don't think i'm ready..
am i??
well,i guess yeah..
especially financially..
hmmmm...

but lately i've been surrounded by weddings..
well yes,been to couple of wed before..
but never got really involved in any of it..
but the last wed i attended..
i was involved in part of it...
then, i have this funny feeling..
feel like wanting my own wedding..
still..when it comes to think about it again..i feel scared..nausea n bla bla...
i dunno y??
is it me?? is it ben??is it because of the commitment??or am i in denial??i dunno..
maybe it's just me...i dunno..

isyallah, noy will get engage with edan..soon..
nonoy keep of asking..why not me first??
i know why noy asked me that..to save on the ring n kain ela thingy la..
sapa suruh langkah bendul kan??
but still *worried* hmmmm...tah la..
i don't think it's something i should do..unless i'm well prepared right??

gowd,y the hell i wrote all this crap in the first place..
better not to think about it at all..
arrggghhhh..

mood : confused
currently listening : last night - diddy feat keyshia cole
location : at home (duhhh)